December, a month bad for forecasting.

Dear Santa,


2005, I think I broke my expenses record once more.
Not that I really mind but I'm more of surprise of my own generosity.
Haha.

I gullibly spent a hugh wad of money at Kimage.
That does it, I'm going to Supercuts next time.

I lost count of how much I spent on buying gifts just for the company

And I slashed myself a 200 dollars worth of my bank account on buying a Bonia handbag for my mum.
This is by far the most expensive thing I ever bought for her.
It was almost twice the sum I last bought for Mothers' day and she lost the pendent with the necklace.
Hey, Bonia was like the LV now ok?And it's still not very cheap these days.

And some other amount I spent on shopping.
I only bought a set of new clothing for New Year.
ONE SET AND THAT"S IT!

But somehow I felt really happy,it felt as if I'm loaded and spending money like this is just like drinking green tea.

Perhaps it was the joy of giving.
But maybe it was too the joy and the sense of accomplishment that I had when I realised I'm one step closer to what I felt that I should be doing. Especially that Bonia bag.
Who knows next time I can buy a LV myself?
Haha!

I woke up really late today.
Perhaps the latest this year.
I woke up at 13:09.
Watched CNA and saw the document on Tsunami.
Made me feel really sad that I almost cant eat my lunch.
Perhaps X'mas can never be the same for the survivors again.
There's this man crying,asking why has God abandoned him.
I hope that he thinks that God saved him and not abandoned him.
The grief is too much and I prayed that these people are better now.
Maybe it's not very possible but still I hope Christmas still shine for them one day.

Did I mention that today is too my parents' wedding anniversary?
It is their 30th one.
They are not the romantic sort and wouldnt hold celebration for almost anything.
(Unlike me, you deprived me of romance I would die like fish on land.)

Romance was in the air when he hugged me and sang Alex's toh songs (under my requests) (Even though we are standing outside my house,not inside)when my stupid brother had to return and burst the bubble.

Oops,side tracked.

So as usual, we are having our once in year turkey event, turkey dish.
It's really once in a year and I love it.
That's perhaps the only thing that makes Christmas @ home like Christmas.
By far there are only two people,or was it one tasted the culinary skills of my dad.

X'mas may be wonderful but it always leaves some bitter taste in my mouth.
There are always some people who were once here in my life and is not here anymore.
Some I think of them in a romantic way, some in a regretful way.(and maybe some other unlisted ways.)

I felt really lazy this year.
Don't think I will do anything special this year for X'mas.

Cos' 2005 maybe a short year for me, it is too a very detailed and eventful one.
There are too many things that I remembered and I know they are gone for good perhaps.

Oh look, Ms Melancholic is here again.

=)

Merry Christmas, my loves.
Be it you are here or not anymore.


I hope to do better next Christmas.


Love,
Mich